Friday, August 13, 2010

Confessions of a Worried Mom

Well, I must confess and repent.  I have been anxious and worried about Maggie

The Bible clearly teaches that Christians are not to worry. In Philippians 4:6, we are commanded, “Do not be anxious [do not worry] about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” In this Scripture, we learn that we should bring all of our needs and concerns to God in prayer rather than worry about them. Jesus encourages us to avoid worrying about our physical needs like clothing and food. Jesus assures us that our heavenly Father will take care of all our needs (Matthew 6:25-34). Therefore, we have no need to worry about anything.

I even have proof, If you look back at my July 26th post entitled "Broken" I wrote "It has been like a hard jab in the stomach knowing her hearing aid is not fixable right now."  I'm starting today and I am going to stop seeing the bumps in the road as bad.  If you are reading this and are in any way involved in an adoption, you know the bumps I'm talking about.  The "This just isn't fair!" or "Why does it have to take so long!" moments.  God is sovereign.  He's running this show called life and I just realized, a little more, that he is a wonderful Director!

 See,we thought the "Broken" hearing aid was just another set back in poor Maggie's already delayed life.  Can you hear the music at our pity party?  Not many people showed up. Little did we know that the original hearing aid (HA) was broken and the engineers at Phonak really didn't know why.  So they tried to fix it, sent it back, and it was broke again.  Strike up the pity band we're having another party!  Until today I really thought this was a bad, unfair picture.  But, as I was leaving the Hear Center today something clicked.  It really started clicking late last week, let me explain.

  My husband and I work for a wonderful hospital.  They have been very supportive of our adoption and we are forever grateful.   Normally, hearing aids are not covered as a benefit with most employers.  Maggie's first HA cost about $800 and they paid the bill in full.  After getting the HA back and finding out it was still broken, we asked about changing to the much more expensive BAHA unit.  (We choose not to go with this unit at first because we were not sure if Maggie would be rough and fling it off her head.  She has done as good as we could have imagined.)  So we asked the makers of the first HA if they would refund us due to all the problems and they agreed.  Now how are we going to pay for this new, and I must say much better unit ?

So I made the call to the wonderful folks at the hospital and inquired about the new unit.  And wouldn't you know it... "We will take care of it". Nearly $4000... Paid in full.  Remember I said He is sovereign.  So it was ordered Monday and was supposed to take 10-14 days to come in....  We get a call this morning early, "can you be in Birmingham by 1:30?  Maggie's HA is in".  So off to the Hear Center we go.  As we were talking to Maggie's Audiologist she says, "I have never seen this HA covered by insurance before ".  I thought about the word "Never"...  You always hear people saying, "Never say never!"  Webster defines it: "not ever; at no time".  I think about our sweet Maggie,  although see was abandoned, God never left her, "at no time" did God not have a plan for her, and "at no time" did God not see her complete in our home in a far away place.

He is sovereign, and I am sinful.  Lord please forgive me for worrying about one of your precious children.  I know things aren't going to always be easy, but I am, starting now, going to see the things that come along in life as a blessing and not a curse.
He loves me, and He loves you!

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Anonymous said...

I need to dish myself up a helping of that advise! :)

Waiting For Bella said...

I have given myself this talk on several occasions. Oh how true it is!!!! I am soooo happy that the hospital paid for the best possible hearing aide for Maggie. Only God! I stand in awe at how He miraculously works all things in favor for His children. I can't wait to see the post that she is hearing again and making progress on her speech. I believe God is going to do another miracle for Maggie's speech. I will stand in prayer with you for just that. He is certainly able and we only have to believe.

Thanks for this post today. It was and encouragement to me. Be blessed!!!

Debbie said...

What a testimony! Awesome! Praise God!

Gavin's Family said...

What wonderful news for you to have on Maggies needs met.
All God our Father for sure!

In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation. Psalm 5:3
We have a daughter !!!!!!
Maggie Caroline was born Oct. 29, 2008.
She is in the SWI of Gaozhou City,China.
Guangdong Province)